Friday, July 2, 2004

Dear John

You are the world to me
Ever since the first day I laid eyes on you
Your eyes saw through me like x-ray vision
When you said “hello”
Your voice melted me like butter
You brought me flowers
Wooing me like a love sick child
Every move slick like ice
Amazing me with your silky skin and shiny hair
You came and swept me off my feet like I’ve dreamt for years
Of my knight in shining armor coming to rescue me
And bringing me the life of happily ever after
That was the olden days
Now years have passed
And I’m now “your woman”
Like I’m some prize you won at the carnival
Throwing coins at the glass plates
Living life like your little robot
Only doing what you tell me to do
Cooking, cleaning and drying your dishes
Like I’m seven years old
A little child that can’t go out
But rather stay home like a trapped butterfly
You wine and dine your friends
Bragging about how you can tame
Any woman that comes down your lane
As if we’re just wild horses
Just waiting on the hills
For someone to come ride us
You treat me like dirt
Kicking me to the curb
Just some sand you picked up from the beach
And bottled me away
Now sitting in some dark corner
Collecting dust
Sitting here, dreaming of yesterdays
And how my friends
Warned me about you
About your playing ways
They told me about all those stories
Of other women
But I didn’t want to hear
Because I was memorized by your charm
And strong arms
And I just told them they were jealous
That I found my boo
The one that will give me everything
Now you yell at me like I’m some
Child waiting to me scolded
As if I’ve done something wrong
Every second of my life
I wait in the dark
Afraid that once again your wrath will come
When you come home
And I realized, this is the life I chose
To be with you
Thinking all my good fortunes have come
Like I was Cinderella
And you were the one that
Would give me the world
Only I was wrong and your words have become like
Venom in my blood
Killing me softly
Your strong touch now bruises on my skin
From when I pull away and you
Take me into your arms and give me what I deserve
For being ungrateful
And undeserving of the life you’ve given me
These bruises
Testament to the life I chosen
Like I entered some horror flick
Where I’m the helpless girl that dies at the end
I woke up this morning
Again, yelling with tears
And sweat dripping down my face
Like I was sick with fever
And I realized,
It’s time
For me to take my life back
It’s time to end this horror flick
Where I’m the independent woman
That saves myself in the end
Not waiting for another knight
To sweep me off my feet
So, this is goodbye
You see my Dear John
I’ve come to my senses 
And I’m leaving you behind
While giving myself a new life
I don’t need you John
Now it’s time to heal myself
And begin living life the way I should have lived
Before I ever met you
Free
From the pain and chains
No more fears
No more tears
No more bruises on my skin